Stop Looking at Your Burnt Body
Everyone in the path of Maa Kali would have experienced an initial phase of burning which is hard to describe in words. These episodes of Smashana in your life are what have allowed you to sit in Her sadhana today.
In my own life, I was burnt to such an extent that I lost all sense of my identity. I lost my body and became literally nothing but skin and bones. I lost my weapon, the weapon of academics. I lost my familial support as everyone started turning a blind eye when I needed them the most. I lost my love life. I lost my friends. I lost everything I thought defined me. Today, Maa has given all of that back, but I just cannot identify with it anymore.
It is the smashana of my own identity that gave me the realization of my real identity, the identity of a sadhaka.
Even today, at times, I sit and think of my dead body, the dead body of my old self, but there is nothing left there anymore.
As we move on in life, smashana will be invoked multiple times by Maa in order to give us a higher birth, but it is important not to get stuck there. The ashes of the burnt body that is your past self should be smeared on you, and you should walk forward with a sense of clarity and confidence, knowing how much you have burned.
If we sit there being sad and attached to the events of our past, there is no higher realization. One has to learn to detach from the smashana after the burn, smear the ashes of the old self, and walk forward to her with clarity, confidence, and extreme mad love.
- KaliPutra Sidharth
- By KaliPutra Siddharth Shisya of Gurudev Shri Praveen Radhakrishnan